Writing about entrepreneurship is a double edged sword, such excitement vs anxiety. Many are times I want to feel like the authority but really I am just learning every second. The moment I think I have it figured out,Boom around the corner, a new challenge. I understand that the day we say we have it all figured out then life is over.
About two years ago, I had reached a pivot point, see after being a great employee and follower of the so called norms a little voice and song in my heart called me to dance to a different tune. If I was to go into the details of the days unfolding after handing over my resignation four years ago, well we could write a book.After the resignation, a load of joy, confusion, sadness, learning, unlearning and a proper mix (‘Mukorogo’) I needed a break to fight another day. I moved back home , upcountry and pressed the reset button on my life.
Words cannot fully express the experience, I feel blessed that I could press reset at 32 years of age and if that is what they call quarter-life crisis ,well been there done that.
In hindsight I should have captured more photos, but I guess this is what they call being planted for growth. A few friends asked me what inspired me to make the move from the city, My key quote was. “Do not make permanent decisions over temporary situations.” Say for example Clive myself off a gentleman, get married to sort my lack of basic needs. Have the courage to make the difficult decision. I was listening to alot of T.D Jakes then and the story of prophet Elijah 1st Kings 19 3 Elijah was afraid when he got her message, and he ran to the town of Beersheba in Judah. He left his servant there, 4 then walked another whole day into the desert. Finally, he came to a large bush and sat down in its shade. He begged the Lord, “I’ve had enough. Just let me die! I’m no better off than my ancestors.” 5 Then he lay down in the shade and fell asleep.
11 “Go out and stand on the mountain,” the Lord replied. “I want you to see me when I pass by.”
All at once, a strong wind shook the mountain and shattered the rocks. But the Lord was not in the wind. Next, there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. 12 Then there was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire.
Finally, there was a gentle breeze,b]”>[b] 13 and when Elijah heard it, he covered his face with his coat. He went out and stood at the entrance to the cave.
The Lordc]”>[c] asked, “Elijah, why are you here?”
These verses served as my guide, I was hearing a lot of advice from motivational speakers, from former colleagues, from new acquaintances, from family and I just wanted to hear God and listen to my heart again.
I required alot of faith on my part to surrender and go back to my roots trusting that it will pay forward.Being at home and undertaking alot of bold steps also called for alot of faith and finally the journey back to the city saw alot of faith input too.